It's been almost 10 months since I started working. I will try and summarize my expecience so far in this one. Not sure how successful i would be in penning my thoughts on this, not sure if i would be able write all the causes and the effects or if would be able to take a screen shot of every experience and paste it here but will make an attempt nonetheless.
Going back in time, I recall a mind full of apprehensions, of being able to stay away from my family...being able to make friends rather being able to like people (i had been tired of the hide n seek game for long...was longing to get n give those genuinely positive vibes i had almost forgotten)...of being able to be good with my work and of being accepted well by seniors and colleagues. I had tried hard to prepare myself for all the difficult situations i might witness, to be able to handle myself and keep myself going even if nothing of the above goes right. I kept reassuring myself that no matter how many times i fail, there would always be a next time.
I try and reassure myself often when things are not going right, though i stumble several times but it has helped more often than not.
Looking back, the past few have been far better than i could ever have anticipated. Not to undermine the satisfaction due to the acceptance of my work, the happiness has essentially been due to the presence of some real good friends and the positive vibes around. Never did I expect to make such great friends that I would be scared at the thought of loosing them. Not that we would do anything exceptional for each other but being around suffices for everything else. I wish we could maintain the same bond forever.
The feeling of appreciation and acceptance of oneself as a person is too good to be explained in words.
This account wouldnot be complete without a score on certain parameters. If had to measure myself with a yard stick on the principles i had set for myself before i began this journey, i would give myself a 5.5 on 10. Have been good on moral grounds, have been more calm than usual (still calls for a lot of improvement), still have stumbled under pressure situations and stressed myself out much more than required, have hurt certain people out of no reason but did make an attempt to help several times, have been fairly honest, might have been shrewd or gullible time and again (really tough to call myself shrewd, dont think if i could ever be fair on this one), largely been honest and fair with rare breaches.
I wish it continues to be good and I could continue to evolve both personally and proffessionally.
Going back in time, I recall a mind full of apprehensions, of being able to stay away from my family...being able to make friends rather being able to like people (i had been tired of the hide n seek game for long...was longing to get n give those genuinely positive vibes i had almost forgotten)...of being able to be good with my work and of being accepted well by seniors and colleagues. I had tried hard to prepare myself for all the difficult situations i might witness, to be able to handle myself and keep myself going even if nothing of the above goes right. I kept reassuring myself that no matter how many times i fail, there would always be a next time.
I try and reassure myself often when things are not going right, though i stumble several times but it has helped more often than not.
Looking back, the past few have been far better than i could ever have anticipated. Not to undermine the satisfaction due to the acceptance of my work, the happiness has essentially been due to the presence of some real good friends and the positive vibes around. Never did I expect to make such great friends that I would be scared at the thought of loosing them. Not that we would do anything exceptional for each other but being around suffices for everything else. I wish we could maintain the same bond forever.
The feeling of appreciation and acceptance of oneself as a person is too good to be explained in words.
This account wouldnot be complete without a score on certain parameters. If had to measure myself with a yard stick on the principles i had set for myself before i began this journey, i would give myself a 5.5 on 10. Have been good on moral grounds, have been more calm than usual (still calls for a lot of improvement), still have stumbled under pressure situations and stressed myself out much more than required, have hurt certain people out of no reason but did make an attempt to help several times, have been fairly honest, might have been shrewd or gullible time and again (really tough to call myself shrewd, dont think if i could ever be fair on this one), largely been honest and fair with rare breaches.
I wish it continues to be good and I could continue to evolve both personally and proffessionally.
